Hi! Back to bitch.

*WARNING* This post contains politics. It is a vent. You have been warned.

It's been awhile! I've been too frazzled and feeling even too bitchy for this blog. I doubt I can even make this coherent, but here we go!

1 - I've been paying special attention to my emotions since I've been home. I am definitely happier and less snippy. Definitely. But not totally. I'm going to continue monitoring my emotions closely because I have a dr's appointment sometime this month and I'd like to talk to her about anti-depressants if need be.

2 - The election. Gawd, the election. I've never seen the likes of the pissiness going around.
I support Obama, OK? I don't care if you don't. Truly!! My own husband isn't even voting for him!
Please, stop sending me ridiculous emails. I'm begging!! Furthermore, I can take the policy discussions, but the outright lies and character assassination attempts are going to do me in!! Blame the liberal media! Play the victim! Scream socialist or better yet, terrorist! Point fingers, lie, and forget about the issues! Say he wasn't born in America. Say he's a Muslim, and mean it like it's a bad thing!
Ug.
I am so. over. it.

3 - Oh, and don't forget to imply that anyone voting for him is a sheep with no brains, who is mesmerized by his pretty, pretty speeches and can't possibly have done their research and come up with the idea that he is actually the better candidate in their opinion.
OK. Now I'm over it.

4 - Halloween candy. Stress from election + readily available supply of chocolate = bad. Very bad.

5 - I was so afraid I might be pregnant again that I took a cheapie internet test the other day. It was negative and I almost cried from joy.

Feeling Sorry for Myself Monday

- I've been having a period every 2 weeks. There is nothing NOT sucky about that.

- I'm pretty sure I haven't seen the sun in weeks. I want my bright, southern sun back.

- Chances are good, I may never have a daughter.

- I told my husband last night that I think I'm depressed and while he was sympathetic, he didn't really have any way to HELP me or much to say.

- Miney hasn't been sleeping at night. He's up almost every hour. I even tried to give him a formula bottle in desperate hopes that it would help him sleep longer. Apparently it tastes like crap - according to the look on his face.

- My husband disappointed me yesterday in a big way.

- I haven't lost any significant weight in quite some time.

- I ordered 3 new shirts from Old Navy and have to send them back because they're 1) a little too small and 2) see through. Suck.

That can't be a good sign.

Urge to run from house screaming and never look back is increasing every day.

Patience has all but disappeared.

Feelings of despair cloud my mind.

I do believe I'm getting close to the end of my rope. I need to get home in a bad, bad way.

My MIL pisses me off

Comment left on Meenie's baby website:

Hey you goofy little sweet boy. We like your pictures better without that lifesaver in your mouth. We can see your happy smile better. Wish we were there spoiling you. Love you,
-Grandma W------

She constantly mentions him using a paci. He's only 18 months old for crying out loud!! (oh, and when she's here, she is constantly pulling it out of his mouth. Resulting in him screaming - which is WHY he has it to begin with. I'll deal with it when he gets a little older, but right now, let it be!)

Then, this.

We are traveling to TX for Miney's baptism. We really wanted to do it at home (AL) so that our friends could be there and we could have a party at our home afterwards. However, the godparents (military) couldn't travel that far AND if we do it in TX my FIL (who is studying to be a deacon) can baptise Miney. We thought that was pretty special.

So, we are traveling to Texas even though it will be a pain in the booty. Annnnnyway, my sister lives in the same town and she offered to have a little party for everyone afterwards at their new house. She just had a new baby (3rd) and works full time and they're pretty busy, but she really wants to do this.
No one else said anything about other plans, so I told her yes and she was so excited. I emailed MIL & FIL today and my bil's and sil's telling them about it so they wouldn't make other plans.

MIL just emailed me back (ME only, not cc'ing AnonHim, FIL or bil's and sil's) saying that she was thinking of doing a party too at (surprise, surprise) the same time. AND that it would be better because all of the family could see us and blah blah. But, she guesses she could do it on Sunday instead. (this is her m.o. - passive aggressive city)

Ugh.

My nerves are already shot from thinking about the stress of this trip and every little thing she says is tying a tighter knot in my stomach.